프롤로그 = 9
1／49 영원히 눈을 감듯이 = 17
2／49 또 다른 간절함 = 22
3／49 가족같이 일할 분 = 25
4／49 즐거운 해피 = 31
5／49 나는 개였다 = 35
6／49 외톨이 = 38
7／49 그렇게 약속했는걸 = 42
8／49 사랑하고 그리워하기에 = 51
9／49 남의 죄를 하나 용서하면 = 57
10／49 좋아서 그러는 거잖아 = 64
11／49 호랑이와 천사와 책 = 70
12／49 자꾸만 책 안으로 = 75
13／49 꿀 없는 꿀개 = 78
14／49 너는 상이 없나? 이거 말고? = 81
15／49 달콤하고 아름다운 편지 = 86
16／49 안락의자가 되어보렴 = 97
17／49 너무나 다행한 일 = 102
18／49 아버지는 말없이 고개를 = 106
19／49 아사와 상퐁정 = 111
20／49 스카버러의 추억 = 116
21／49 진작 질렀어야 하는 = 120
22／49 너는 단락도 모르니? = 125
23／49 이름도 모르는 곳으로 = 130
24／49 입술로 만든 배 위에 = 136
25／49 부디 다른 세상만큼은 = 157
26／49 여전히 얼룩덜룩하게 = 163
27／49 함께 있으면 마음이 = 173
28／49 이왕 이렇게 된 것 = 176
29／49 엄청난 속도에 비례해서 = 186
30／49 내 자존심이 허락하지 않아서 = 191
31／49 엄청난 지옥이 익숙해져가고 = 202
32／49 그리고 나는 결정을 내렸다 = 226
33／49 간호사님만 알고 있어요 = 230
34／49 왜 개삐삐는 그런 여자와 = 234
35／49 아무도 나에게 진짜를 말해주지 않았다 = 243
36／49 이런 데서 일할 사람 = 266
37／49 사랑한다는 말 = 274
38／49 지금은 없어 = 288
39／49 과연 그렇게 할 수 있을까? = 297
40／49 시인이 되었다 = 308
41／49 찬란하고 아름다운 빛 = 313
42／49 어머니가 순해졌다 = 320
43／49 아무 말없이 딸의 손을 = 330
44／49 그래서 그냥 살았다 = 347
45／49 다음 날도, 그다음 날도 = 361
46／49 주어진 목숨까지는 = 367
47／49 나는 괴물을 사랑한다 = 369
48／49 푸른 침실로 가는 길 = 374
49／49 마음의 빛 = 378
에필로그 = 381